The diary of a nerd...a nerd who doesn't follow the herd! (real diary entries!)

Mmmmm....I don't see it...

LucyXX

OMG! I DO!

EVERYONE DOES!

lol

I dunno...just...not really...sorry

Your more...sarcastic...and he's more...goofish (it's a good thing Matt)

LucyXX

hehe hi darling

watcha doin?

Not much lol

Anyways

20.11.08

Did my music exam on Tuesday...it went good I think

Then, I had a fight with mum because she tried to make me go to Spain...and then I've been made feel lower than ever....through mum's rants...and insults from peers at school.

Mum is still on maybe for France...and I cannot stop worrying that she will say no. I am started to get worry lines...
I want to go to France more than :

I want my own bassoon
I want to be head girl
I want to go to hogwarts.

ALL PUT TOGETHER! MORE THAN THAT!
Hannah says she has a plan...but she cannot tell me. I hope it's full-proof...because if I don't get to go to France, there is a big chance I may do something stupid...like what I did the night I offended Hayley...but I promised three different people that I wouldn't try that again....

And I am not allowed to worry any more...and I'm not gonna...because it is in Hannah's hands now...and she has never ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever ever failed me ever before...

So I'm trying to be happy.

Anyway...YO! CARLOW IN 3 DAYS! I am quite excited...but not about sharing a room with Beverley and Clare...because I am sooooooo different from them...plus...deep inside...I know they hate me...

LucyXX

Wow.

She wants that a lot.

She's had her heart set on Hogwarts since book one *sigh*

I want to go to France more thaaaan .....

More than I like boys.

...


Its too hard, I'm sorry

Thats a lie ... lol

13.12.08

WE MADE SOME PROGRESS TODAY! Mum saw Jenn on webcam...and she was laughing and waving at her and such...it was funny, and kinda cool.

I kinda glad of that much, hoping and praying for a yes.

LucyXX

OMG REALLY?!?!?!


AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


we are making progress people!
what did your mum say ??

TELL ME!!!

She said that she seems like a nice wee girl.

SO MAKING PROGRESS!

LucyXX

LMAO


She is though

...


:D:D:D:D:



Now Luce, for your next entry, describe what we are doin the seven days Jenn coems!

Ok, Hannah, I know you wanted me to write that thing now, but I have more stuff to write about.

10.01.09

I am worried about two people right now. One is one of my best friends...and one is my worst enemy.

It's not right for me to be worried about my worst enemy, Jessica...but well, I am. She's going through a hard time right now, and though she shields it by lashing out at me and telling people about it...I over-hear things...and see the fear in her eyes alot. It must be to do with the fact that I can remember seeing that fear in her eyes when we were little kids and she broke her arm while jumping off a slide. It's the same fear, and even though I hate her, my heart is sad for her...it's the same sadness for her when she lost the little sister she never knew...

I am concerned about Jenni. I haven't spoken to her in a very long time. I just simply want to know that she's alright...and that she's happy...and that I'll be able to talk to her soon...because I miss her....and um...don't think of her as an outsider...because she's one of the greatest people ever to walk into my life...

Her...and Hannah...

LucyXX

Awww, I'm so sorry you feel like that!! But you know it's gonna get better, right? It always does!!

Does't it always ...

nice to meet you...

It's just I always want to be there for Jenni...even though there is the "Englsih Channel rule." I miss saying "Heyhe," to her "Heyho" on MSN. And we all gotta have friends, right. I mean, she's the one who told us the truth of "Cannae beating a true scottish accent," and she's the kind of person that you could forgive and forget, and who would forgive you. She's caring and sweet...and well...this is worse than that time she went to Scotland. I miss her so much more now, because I least I know where she was. I don't mind where you are Jenn, whether you are in Japan, Scotland, France or Russia or Ireland or somewhere...I wish I could talk to you right now.

Lu
XX

signed, HKing

04.02.09

I feel like complete and utter crap....
I wasn't on last night when you were all having fun. I hate missing stuff...school is doing my head in...I feel hungry and sick...I'm going to be away all weekend, so I'll miss so much RP because I know people aren't gonna be able to wait for me! I'm just so angry with my life at the moment....
I spent last night crying at a film, "The Green Mile" It's my new favourite movie, but it's effed up my opinions of capital punishment now, so I'm gonna have to change my essay points for english now...

AHHHHHHHHHHHH!
What the eff is the point!
...I'm so tired of missing stuff...

LucyXX

Emm..

The point is ...


Fun

The point is I was in a bad mood yesterday when I wrote that, and what I'm trying to say is PLEASE DO NOT LEAVE ME BEHIND WHILE I'M AWAY AT THE WEEKEND...Please...

LucyXX